| Location | London |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 15/01/2007 |
| Date of Death | 15/01/2007 |
| Visitors | 5,336 since 02/10/2007 |
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOR THE 15TH JANUARY FOR SUCH A SPECIAL LITTLE BOY. CANNOT BELIEVE YOU WOULD BE 4!! YOU ARE LOVED AND MISSED BY SO MANY..HAVE A LOVELY DAY BABYBOY..SENDING KISSES AND HUGS TO YOUR MUMMY AND DADDY!!xxx
How do you write about someone whos life was so short and yet so precious, who touched the hearts of many.He has changed peoples lives. What are you suppose to do when you have gone through six years of pain, heartache and longing, while all those around you are having the children you want so badly. You put on a brave face and smile, until one day you get a glimmer of hope and go for IVF, and you manage to finally fall pregnant with the child you need in your life. You dont care if its a girl or a boy, just that its your own.Thats what Toni john was, he was a ray of sunshine and the hope you needed. Unfortunately even though he was a miracle, he never got to live his life. Caroline was taken in to hospital because her waters had broken at just 24 weeks, and it was just pure bad luck that he fell ill.Nothing could of been done and it was no ones faults, it wouldnt of mattered if gareth had wrapped caroline up in cotton wool, the fate still would of been the same. Its a cruel fate of mother nature.Its had to know what is worse the fact that you would have to hear no heartbeat during the ultrasound or the fact that you will never hear him cry even though you have to give birth to him.Toni john was pronounced dead at 11pm on the 14th of January 2007 after the ultrasound had confirmed the worse fears of everyone.It wasnt until 2:47am on the 15th of january 2007 that a precious little boy was born, he was just 31cms long and weighed just 620 grams. He was perfect, with ten fingers and toes. How are you meant to go from planning the birth of your child to planning his funeral, instead of cots and prams, you face the hard task of choosing what will be the clothes he will lay to rest in or wot pattern you want on the coffin, while in your head the whole time you are screaming and refusing to believe its true.Everybody always worries about the mothers in this situation but what about the fathers, even though gareth may not have carried toni john he was and still is a part of him. The worse thing is that everyone expects you to forget and move on when all you want to do is reverse time and stop the nightmare that has become your life, you will never wake up and find him, you only have the black space where your heart use to be. Every waking moment is spent thinking about who would he have looked like? what colour eyes would he have? would he have loved football or would he have hated it? And everytime you try and heal and take a step towards the future you cant because your scared that you will forget him, or that he will think you are trying to replace him. Guilt is all you feel but you know that you will never forget and that there is nothing in this world that will ever mean as much to you as he does.Toni John Roberts-Joyce will never be forgotten and will always be missed.
Angel Tears At Christmas
God sends His lovely angel tears
To us this time of year
They float and tumble through the air
And send out Christmas cheer.
Each flake He sends is special
From out of wintry skies
They paint a pretty picture
To soothe our weary eyes.
They glide and twirl as if to say
The season's just begun
And gently beckon to us
To join in merry fun.
Like sparkling gems, they fill the sky
And quietly take up space
They seem to flow in harmony
Attired in angel lace.
At Christmas time when all is calm
We look to things above
For angel tears and Christmas
To fill our lives with love.
A sacred star shines in the East
As Christmas day draws near
A manger scene, a Holy night
And gentle angel tears.
The children gather 'round the tree
To hear the Christmas story
As angel tears fall to the earth
To trim the earth in glory.
His precious tears drift to the earth
So everyone will know
A child was born in Bethlehem
It's written in the snow.
So if you get to feeling blue
And plagued by worldly fears
Just look outside your window
God's shedding angel tears.
Love Always Daddy And Nat xXx
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Nat N Gareth Parents Of Jessie Roberts And Daddy Of Toni John Roberts Joyce (Daddy)
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Merry Christmas Babyboy!! We Love And Miss You Lots Love From Daddy, Nat, Aeryn, Bethanie, Frankie And Bump!! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
Nat N Gareth Parents Of Jessie Roberts And Daddy Of Toni John Roberts Joyce (Daddy)
December 25, 2011From Daddy To Toni John From Me.xx
Most days I walk around with a smile on my face, but you only have to look into my eyes to see the pain that lies beneath. I wait until theres no one around before i allow my grief to show. Them lonely tears that stream down my face are the droplets of happiness that can never be replaced. Its been over four years now, and i still cant help but wonder what you would look like or how it be to hear you laugh. i wake everyday just to watch how your brothers and sisters have grown. I love seeing how much they have changed and watching them learning new things but i cant help but feel like im doing wrong that i shouldn't be happy or proud, because its just not right something is missing and thats YOU! For every laugh and smile its the instant guilt that follows it stays there all day and haunts me at night, these dreams i have not only twist with reality but are my constant reminder ive been robbed of hearing your voice and seeing your face.
Its that time again to come and visit you at your grave,i know its been too long and that only makes it worse i bring toys and flowers as usual but id rather see you play. I can never stay for long no matter how hard i try, i miss you too much, its like the pain starts all over again and i want to do is hear you call my name. These years that have passed haven't made it easier in fact it feels like its getting worse, the emptiness inside my chest has only gotten bigger with every birthday anniversay and christmas, it is unbearable eating away inside and the only thing i can think of is how i want to die. I know its not right to think like that and i pray each day that the way i feel gets better but i know its just proof that i love you my 1st born son. You ae never far from my mind and always in my heart. I love you always and want you to know that as much as i want you here with me i know your brothes and sisters need me so although it will seem like forever it won't be long until we are together again.xxxx
Daddy.x
Guess what daddy,
Heaven is great.
Just like you said,
There's not much longer to wait.
Guess what daddy,
I have a guardian angel who comes at night.
I told him I wanted to go,
But the times not right.
Guess what daddy,
My angel came this morning.
While you were still in bed,
He came with a warning.
Guess what daddy,
When I left with January.
So you could rest some more,
I knew my time was soon.
Guess what daddy,
When you were finally out of sight,
I told my angel,
The time is just right.
Guess what daddy,
When you still didn't know I was gone,
My angel put his hand in mine,
And I was no longer stiff or sick,I felt so happy & fine.
Guess what daddy,
When the hospital called,I saw you crying from above.
I saw you daddy & how scared you was,
And I knew how much I was loved.
Guess what daddy,
On the way to the hospital I heard you pray,
Don't let them bring me back,
I know you don't want God to take me away.
Guess what daddy,
I saw you walk into the room,and ask is he gone.
I saw the look on your face when the nurse said yes!
It looked like you'd never go on.
Guess what daddy,
I see you holding me tight.
I kissed you good-bye with my love,
And tried to tell you I was alright.
Guess what daddy,
There's no more pain,
You can go on with your life,
And not feel so drained.
Guess what daddy,
I'll watch you all your days through.
And be like your guardian angel,
Just because, I LOVE YOU!!
Sweet Dreams Beautiful Boy xx
Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I did not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there, I did not die.
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happy new year lil one!
Hey beautiful babyboy, its almost ur bday and as exciting as that is there has been some very sad times down here,me and your daddy lose another baby in november but even sadder than that your poor mummy lost her twin baby girls thier names r Angel n Hope but u already know that bcos im sure u have been watching over her and helping her keep strong,i hope u r being a good big brother and looking after them all. 4 years and alot has happened things have changed but I still love u,ur sister and ur daddy.u r still in my thoughts everyday I wish u were here to help mend his broken heart,he trys so hard but its easy to see hw much he misses u..take care babyboy look over ur daddy,mummy,me, aeryn,callum,bethanie and frankie..sending u kisses n love straight from my heart..c u soon.xx
Nat N Gareth Parents Of Jessie Roberts And Daddy Of Toni John Roberts Joyce (Daddy)
January 14, 2011❤
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~~~ FOR A VERY SPECIAL ANGEL. ~~~
~~~~GOOD MORNING SWEETHEART.~~~~
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heyah darlin, im so sorry we havent been on to speak in ages, but our thoughts are with you every day, hope you and your angel friends had a great christmas, all the best for 2010 love andy and karen xx
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